"What Has Light To Do With Darkness"?
2 Corinthians 2: 14-15 "Don't develop partnerships with those who are not followers of Jesus' teachings. For what real connection can exist between righteousness and rebellion? How can light participate in darkness. What harmony can exist between the Anointed and Satan? Do the faithful and faithless have anything in common"?
Do you have people in your life, people whom you love very much, but it seems you are at constant "war" with them? Yeah, me too.
There are the times when things seem to "get better" and then "WHAM"! it all starts over again. Harsh words, misunderstandings, accusations...betrayal. It cycles with what seems to be peace and forgiveness through empty apologies and the false hope of, "Maybe this is the last time". Only to find it isn't.
I've experienced lot of that lately, and it has really intensified. I have gone to God with it... OFTEN, because I love this person so much! There is always an "underlying" tension and the anticipation of the next "bomb" ticking away... announcing it's only a matter of time.
God has shown the comparison of our lives to be the "problem"... I just always wanted to "FIX IT". (Are you one of those people too?) I haven't argued with God over this, but I would make "excuses" for her while begging God to open her eyes to what is really happening in her life, in her spirit and to show her the consequences of living without Him.
Instead, He has opened mine. A "relationship" between us will never be any more than it is. Her god is the god of this world and I don't think she even knows it. She claims to believe in Jesus, but her life doesn't reflect it in any way. She has befriended a self professed Pagan, though she tries to assimilate Paganism with Christianity. (we all know God's opinion of that...) Her life is a web of constricting lies and hatefulness. She's been known to "take what doesn't belong to her" and sell it with a sense of entitlement and there no conscience to the wrong doings of her own choices. It always seems to be the fault of someone else.
God showed me this "pattern" a long time ago, but I just always held on to hope. Even reminding her that the Lord is going to come soon...and her response is, "Don't worry about me...I'm right with God". It breaks my heart every time I hear her say it, because the description of her life is that recorded in Galatians 5:19-21: "It's clear that our flesh entices us into practicing some of its most heinous acts: participating in corrupt sexual relationships, impurity, unbridled lust, idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, arguing, jealousy, selfishness, contentiousness, division, envy of other's good fortune, drunkenness, drunken revelry and other shameful vices that plague humankind. I told you this clearly before and I only tell you again so there is no room for confusion: those who give in to these ways will not inherit the Kingdom of God".
What can you do when God lays out the truth before you? He has told me that it is in His hands and there is NOTHING I can do. Even with that, I have asked if there could be a way I could share the "truth of His Word" with her again and He reminded me she has the opportunity to turn to Him, and if she is blinded to the truth because of unbelief, "because the evil god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers,[that they should discern the truth], preventing them from seeing the illuminating light of the Gospel of the glory of Christ, the Messiah, Who is the Image and Likeness of God". (2 Cor.4:4 Amp) How do you argue the word of God...with God?
All I can do is find peace in my heart and soul about her, and continue to pray for her eyes to be opened to God. I accept that God has removed her from my life, for now...
This has taught me yet another lesson of both God's protection over my life, and another more humbling... which is to pay attention to the Holy Spirit within me. His words are always true. He's in our future as well as our present and knows the outcome of our circumstances. My trust should always be in Him, and to think I have anything to offer beyond what He has told me to do, is nothing more than foolishness for me.
My "job" is to love, forgive and continue in prayer. His, is ... everything else.